You need to have a plan to deal with terror

When Ben was afraid at night he'd sleep on the floor of his closet to fill the void there. When he crawled out in the morning his face was dimpled from laying his cheek on the carpet. His legs would wobble with pins and needles since he had to bend his knees at an odd angle under the winter coats just to fit. Considering the kind of man he became I think it's funny that as a child he was desperate to become his own monster.